#yearofsonnets 053/365 . I really miss being on stage sometimes. It's been, what, a year and a half, at least? So many things come up and get in the way. I need to find my way back into a theatre community. But for now, I get to enjoy Dame Helen's masterclass.
#yearofsonnets 37/365 . And, sometimes, a gorgeous cover of a Taylor Swift song brings back memories, for better or worse. (Both. It's usually both.) . Currently listening to Taylor Swift's Holy Ground, covered by Lilli Cooper, Jennifer Damiano, Blake Daniel, Andrew Durand, Preston Sadleir, and Barrett Wilbert Weed (https://youtu.be/1buvc2KBQf8) . #poem
#yearofsonnets - 027/365 . Currently listening to #thebadyears by @kerrigan_lowdermilk . After a while, the only way you can protect yourself is to do things where you'll never be disappointed. If you don't try, you won't fail. You won't be ignored. You won't have your hard work go unnoticed by the world. *shrugs* There's already so much disappointment out there, why open yourself up to more, willingly? .
#yearofsonnets 026/365 . To say that I'm excited for @halseanderson 's SHOUT is an understatement. For almost 20 years now, Laurie's words have carried me to survival, salvation, and hope. They mean more to me than I can explain with words. She is a champion. . #poem
#yearofsonnets 025/365 . Currently listening to The Wheel from @tuckmusical . The metaphor that The Tucks use to describe their immortality is very similar to one that I use to describe the effect of my years of depression--you fall off the wheel, you lose your place in the natural order of the world. And you are stuck in this same one place, while the rest of the world keeps on going around you. And there's no way to get back on or to experience the things you should have experienced. . #poem ...
#yearofsonnets 024/365 . I haven't been great about posting them every day on here, but they are getting written, so yay! . I did not expect today's poem to have the happy ending it did. It's been a bad day. I hate bureaucracy, y'all. Almost as much as I hate being poor. . If you want to get daily updates with my writing, you can join my mailing list--you'll get the stuff sent to you. . https://upscri.be/444ef5/
#yearofsonnets 014/365 . Today, I wrote a blog post that was very difficult to write. But I made myself do it, because I thought it would be useful. (It's up on my Medium if you want to see it--look in my bio). I got a lot of positive comments on it. But I also got a negative one that really kind of hit me. This is, kind of, my response to that. . Surviving is hard. Staying here is hard. And sometimes, it is selfish. We have to be selfish. We have to hold ourselves together before we can ...
#yearofsonnets 013/365 . When you have an online friend that you wish you were close enough to to comfort. I don't have many tools, but I can write you a damn sonnet with my honest prayer for you--for us. . Currently listening to: The Journey by @kerrigan_lowdermilk . #poem
#yearofsonnets 010/365 . Some poems are just damn hard to finish. Got about halfway through, and I wasn't sure what direction I wanted to go in. Story of my life. . Currently listening to @amandapalmer -- the point of it all and, as always @kerrigan_lowdermilk -- holding on . #poem
#yearofsonnets 008/365 . Do not be tempted to read too much into the metaphor of this poem. It's literally about trying to get my sick ass out of bed today. . Currently listening to: Anyway from #thebadyears by Kerrigan-Lowdermilk. .
#yearofsonnets 007/365 . I am not feeling great today. I think this poem reflects that very well. I was all but ready to give myself a pass on not writing and uploading a sonnet today, but I made myself do it. And it's done. Sometimes, things just aren't going to be great. . Currently listening to: She Keeps Her Love Away by @ripleytheband . #poem
#yearofsonnets 006/365 . For a friend of mine. 'Cause sometimes everything is hard, and nothing makes sense. We keep going. . Currently listening to Miles to Go from #themadones by @kerrigan_lowdermilk .
#yearofsonnets 005/365. . There is a part of my mind that is nostalgic for better days that never were. It has always been hard, but that doesn't stop the rose-colored thoughts. . Currently listening to All Too Well--by @globelamp -- my favorite cover of my favorite Taylor Swift song. (https://youtu.be/h8B18HCAKUw) . #poetsofinstagram
#yearofsonnets 004/365 . I've been working on a chapbook for a poetry contest. All of the poems I've written about C over the last decade and change. That's where my head's been lately. And here's another one. Release. Freedom. Peace. . Currently listening to: I Will Rise by Chris Tomlin . #poetsofinstagram
#yearofsonnets 002/365 . One of my favorite poems of all time is Paul Verlaine's "Il pleur dans mon coeur" and that is exactly what it feels like here. Not that it's raining at this moment. It's just very gray. Robert Macfarlane on Twitter gave me the proper German frankenword for this feeling: Frühjahrsmüdigkeit – the feeling of ennui that colours the dark, early months of the northern European year. . Currently listening to: @birdyinstagram -- Not About Angels. . #poetsofinstgram
#yearofsonnets 001/365 . . . Let me preface this by saying that I'm not feeling quite this pessimistic. It is just a very gray day in Northwestern Pennsylvania. . . . I'm trying a new thing. I don't know how well I'm going to do it. It's kind of ambitious for me, but I'll at least give it a shot; writing a sonnet, if not every day, at least 365 of them this year. So we'll see how that goes. . #poetsofinstgram